Goin' Out of My Head

The lovely lady in the picture above is Florence Ballard, also known as The Supreme that Got Done Wrong. One of the songs that she sang during her short-lived solo career was called Goin' Out of My Head. It is now one of my favorite songs. She sings about being in love and admiring a guy from afar and losing her mind all the while because she won't talk to him. After a while, she finally decides to go for it. It's got 1960s and 1970s soul written all over it and I love it. Unfortunately, I've been sort of going out of my head this entire summer. For one, I've spent too much time alone since I practically have no friends here in my "hometown" anymore. I guess I could go make some more but I really don't even like it here anymore. I'm also getting harrassing phone calls from the credit card people, that's always great. I still miss Joe (though I think I'm still having some sort of inner emotional conflict concerning him). On top of all of that, I can't seem to make myself do what I'm supposed to. The whole purpose of going into business for myself was so that I could work for myself and be a little less stressed. However, in order to do that you have to have some self-discipline. I can make myself get up and exercise every other day, but I have the toughest time making myself write. Why? At first it was writer's block, now I'm not so sure. I'm supposed to be living my life like it's worth it and I'm not. I'm not happy. It could be that since I've sort of turned writing into a job that it's no longer fun for me anymore. That could be it. Or maybe, it's because of the same reason that I'm on academic probation this semester, lack of structure. Either way, it's something that I need to work on if I'm going to pay off my debts at least by next century.

On the financial side, I got my first check from Clixsense in the amount of $8.14 after processing fees. That's awesome. I log on a click on whatever ads are available and once I reach minimum payout of $10, I get a check between the 1st and the 10th of the next month. It usually takes about ten minutes. It's easy money. I also got paid from Neobux on July 31. Instant payment via Paypal is always awesome. I also take surveys every week with Opinion Place and get paid within two weeks, usually around $3. So since I take them on a regular basis now, I get money almost every week. I think PineCone Research found me somehow but I usually get a survey about once a week. At first I was getting paid with check and it would come within a week. Now I get Paypal and the last payment I got the next day. MySurvey is always good. On the rare occasion that I get a survey from E-Poll it's good, too. I've started writing for another site and I kind of like it. I have certain keywords that I have to base the piece on and I like that. There's a lot less restriction that way.

Anyway, I can't go without showing you a picture of the view from the hotel I stayed in recently of one of the Great Lakes (not sure which one it is. It's the one closest to Cleveland, that's where I was. I should know the name of that lake.) I was in Cleveland for a family reunion a couple of weeks ago and I had a great time. I could only stay for two days but I'm definitely going back in the spring.